Why, Lord?
He
replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith
as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain,
‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for
you.” (NIV)
There is so much emotional upheaval in
my life I scarcely know how to fix it, or more specifically fix those who are
causing the turmoil. Perhaps therein lies the problem. Me thinking I can fix
anything. It’s way past time to lay it at Jesus feet and let him take it up. My
“fixes” have only made those I’m trying to help dependent on me, not on God.
What will happen when I trust the Lord and stop fretting about things I cannot
change? Am I willing to place my trust in him and let it go at that? How do I
know what God expects of me or am I being too analytical? Today seems no better than yesterday
as I struggle with conscience verses good sense, and above all – Faith,
believing God is at work and his outcome for those I love is in his hands. A
loved one’s illness, another’s selfish disregard for anyone else, these people
who I love and whose lives are in such turmoil – I cannot fix them or their
lives; I must trust in the Lord. And then it hits me. I’ve made this all about
me. Maybe the fix needs to start in my heart, beginning with faith, forgiveness
and letting go. God is at work. That's all I need to know.
